[BNP/E3, 49A2 – 77r]

- 8-7-08 -

Why do suffer so |before| I die

Dragging a load of woe upon me?

Why should I

Suffer ______________________________________________

And if my inspiration be paid by

Sorrow and woe – but why should it thus be?

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Why do I suffer so since I must die

(Suffices not that?) with such pain on me?

To[1] what good is my pain to God. Have I

Done nought to render just such misery?

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If my deep joy with beauty be paid by

Sorrow and woe – but if shall it thus be?-

Why compensation. Suffer and die –

Why should Omnipresence thus[2] evilly?

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Why all this suffering – ay? In heaven to find

Rest? By only this ill links into good?

Why not have rest {…} seems suffering?

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Dear Friend, if this the beest, my mind

Reasoning thus revolted is {…}

Meaningless torture that our life doth bring

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[1] To /Of\
[2] Omnipresence thus /All-Power make thus\